I find myself feeling remorseful over my lack of blogging of late. As seems to be the trend lately, it's not that I have nothing to say, it just seems that I don't have the words to say it. In fact, I'm not really sure why I'm writing currently, other than the fact that I had the urge to at least get some words on the screen.
So, here I am... attempting to blog.
And failing...ha.
I guess I could update you on my current situation in life.
It seems I've hit my midlife brain breakdown rather early in life. I've been forgetting/losing/misplacing things left and right lately. Seriously, that's not okay for an OCDer like myself. I find it rather difficult to rest at night when I have loose ends left untied. Example: my glasses. I set them down at church on Sunday afternoon, but I can't remember where. And I can't find them anywhere. Nor has anyone on staff, any of our students, or any of the cleaning crew stumbled upon them.
All of this leads me to believe one thing: there is a mouse out there looking quite intelligent and studious in my specs.
Thankfully, I had just visited the optometrist last Friday and ordered a new pair of frames. Then Sunday happened... Can we say ironic? Gratefully, my new glasses arrived yesterday and I am so so so loving them!
Let me take a minute to draw a spiritual application from this situation.
For some reason, the Lord seems to use lesson after lesson in my life to show me His faithfulness. The glasses situation is yet another reminder that He is faithful and He is in control. People say that God doesn't care about the details, the little things--that He has way bigger things to worry about; but I refuse to give into that idea. I KNOW, based on irrefutable evidence time and time again in my own life, that He does care. That even the "silly little things" are not out of His reach, nor His focus.
This week, a friend reminded me of an entirely necessary passage.
1 Peter 5:6-7 says, "Humble yourselves, therefore, under the mighty hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you."
It's my understanding that God's care doesn't just stop after the cut off of "big things"--illness, financial issues, family stress, death, etc. Rather than specifying these things, Scripture says, "He cares for YOU." I find such comfort in that. I will definitely attest to the humbling that is mentioned in the first part of verse 6. Feeling like I'm losing my mind definitely has a way of humbling me. But that's exactly the point. When I get to the spot of being humbled, and understanding that I can't find it/figure it out/make it happen, that's when I finally cry out to the Lord. And He's right there, ready to take my junk and show His care for me.
That is amazing grace, my friends. And that is a small taste of what I've been experiencing lately, even in the midst of losing my mind.
He cares.
And He is faithful.
May you experience His care and faithfulness today.
